A few years ago I read Judith Orloff's book, Second Sight, and I recently borrowed it from the library again. This is one of those books that, when I start doubting myself, brings me right back to knowing that I'm doing what I do exactly the way that it is supposed to be done. That I need to remember to trust the universe, and let it lead the way.
She mentions a healer named Jack, "I never saw Jack reverse cancer or perform any such miraculous cures, but his patients did improve. Naively, I had hoped he could relieve them of all their symptoms, but I soon discovered that healing didn't work that way. What Jack gave his patients was a second wind, a jump-start of powerful energy."
I know that my work isn't of the miraculous sort, and yet I also know that it definitely makes a difference in the client's life.
She then later mentions a woman named Rosalyn, "She'd been treating me for stomach problems the past few months." (italics mine) "My physical symptoms markedly improved during these treatments. Not only did Rosalyn rid me of the annoying tight knot in the pit of my stomach, but her sessions left me with a sense of extreme well-being that would last for hours."
That passage reminds me that while most clients request a single session, some issues are not as simple as a headache or a quick release of stuck emotions, and may take more than one treatment. And that I need to step up and let those particular potential clients know this and not be afraid to sound pushy doing so. I have to trust my instincts and stop keeping myself small when it is in the client's best interest for me to stand tall in my inner knowing.
When Orloff began doing energy healing herself, she noted, "I simply sat on the couch, hands steady on her body, allowing myself to be a vehicle through which love could flow. To be successful, healing requires a transparency, a passive receptivity, rather than any purposeful effort."
I find that if I let my ego get in the way, wondering "if, if, if", as I'm doing a session, then the flow of light and love is lessened, whereas when I let my mind wander to the show I'm watching or the birds around the feeder, even the clouds floating across the sky, then Spirit has an uninterrupted conduit through me and can do the work that needs to be done. The love flows to where it needs to be, and in the amount the client's soul is ready for.
As a practitioner of a not-always-obvious way of helping people, it's easy to get lost in the worries of "am I good enough, am I doing enough, did I help them, will they notice...and on and on." Rereading this book reminds me that none of this is about me, and that the universe chose me to do this work, and the universe knows what it's doing.
I really need to just buy this book. ;)
©Pip Miller - August 2016
Recently, someone tweeted a post titled, 14 Truths About Being An Introvert (That Mainly Introverts Will Understand), and as I've been diving into Energy Profiling again, it caught my eye. Right off the bat, #1 hit home. I very much prefer working alone, yet depending on the job, this can cause a build-up of stress (and possible illness, as happened to me last month, again), especially when the days are longer than are comfortable for an introvert.
The bottom of the article had links to similar articles, each one confirming more and more my true introvert nature. A couple things in this article made me laugh, and each link led me further down the rabbit hole, so to speak. I landed on this book, Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking., and it is fascinating! She pulls in examples of how extroverts and introverts work differently in the business world (and how being an extrovert became THE way to be there), and as well as many other situations.
One distinction she raises between shyness and introversion is this: "Nor are all introverts shy. Shyness is the fear of social disapproval or humiliation, while introversion is a preference for environments that are not overstimulating. Shyness is inherently painful; introversion is not." "Many shy people turn inwards, partly as a refuge from the socializing that causes them such anxiety." "...the shy person is afraid to speak up, while the introvert is simply overstimulated..." (italics mine)
This blew me away. For as long as I can remember, I've considered myself shy, and the exact reason is that I'm always, always afraid of saying something stupid, wrong, or silly. And if I'm put on the spot, the words don't come out the way they are in my head, reinforcing the fear. I can fake it at work most of the time, but in reality, that fear never leaves me.
Between the energy profiling and this journey of self-exploration and insight, there has been a light shining on a lot in my life, and when I finish this book, I'll be exploring more books about introversion, such as The Introverts Way: Living a Quiet Life in a Noisy World, and this cool website by the author of "Quiet", called The Quiet Revolution.
Are you an introvert, too? Did you know there's something called an "ambivert" (equally extro- and introverted)? How do you handle situations that require more extroversion than you have the energy for? And I wonder...is this something that contributes to chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia? Have those people just pushed so far beyond their energetic levels that the rubber band* has broken? What are your thoughts?
©Pip Miller - May 2016
*Cain uses this analogy: "We might call this the "rubber band theory" of personality. We are like rubber bands at rest. We are elastic and can stretch ourselves, but only so much."
I once mentioned being a rebel pagan, and now I'll tell you how I'm a rebel healer. Well, maybe 'rebel' is a bit strong; not so much a rebel as simply...different.
I do gentle healing light sessions differently than most energy healers I know: no crystals in the room, I don't need the person's true name (or a name at all, actually), no picture is needed, permission is not needed - if it's not meant to work, it won't. It's that easy. I don't cleanse with salt, meditate ahead of time, need a silent space...none of the things that we've come to believe are necessary to help others.
I didn't start out trying to be a rebel healer, it just kind of happened. I quickly learned that I could do it any where and any time, interruptions and conversation didn't matter, and the more I help people, the better I not only feel, but the more I'm pumped up and excited to keep the flow going.
There are some quotes I'd saved along the way from or about other rebel healers, but somehow they've gotten lost over time. One was from Judith Orloff's book Second Sight about either her mom or her grandmother doing energy healing and chatting away with the client, having done the work so long that she knew it would take care of itself (or something along those lines; trying to remember). I find that the more I focus on what I'm doing, the more I get in the way between Spirit and the client. Which, I've discovered recently, can be a bit of an issue during in-person sessions because my mental tape starts running and I worry that I'm doing a terrible job because I think I've blocked the flow with my stress over doing well. I haven't, because luckily, Spirit is in charge, not me, and there is always a shift for the client. :) If I'm busy, say at work, and I take a few minutes to help a headache or someone's pain, I'm sufficiently otherwise occupied that the flow is strong and the person is always surprised at how much better they feel in such a short period of time. So I'm a rebel in the way I do best at allowing Spirit to do its work - the less attention, the better. Not normal, right?
In Eric Pearl's book The Reconnection, there's a chapter titled "Setting the Tone" that hit so close to home that I literally was yelling to my guy, "This, this!!!" as I read it, most especially the sub-chapter "The Hidden Fear in Our Rituals", wherein he speaks about the crystals, protection, candles, jewelry, etc, and he finishes it with this lovely little bit: "Tissue - to dry your tears from either laughing so hard at some of this that you blow out your candles, or from crying when you accidentally kill your flowers by placing them in the salt water you were supposed to shake your hands off into...and the prayers don't bring them back." Can you say Rebel Healer? ;)
I went into this not believing that I could make a difference, and so even though I worked in an environment that believes quite fiercely in the 'rituals' and 'musts' of how to do energetic healing, I just did what felt right and ignored the rest. I mean really, how many healers do you know that sit outside with a teddy bear, chatting to the birds and the neighbors while sending healing light 1/2 way around the world?
And it works. Quite well. Sometimes very powerfully, sometimes more subtly, but it always works on some level. Of this I am now certain. So I shall continue to be a rebel healer, doing my own thing even when others still tell me that 'on some level you are taking stuff in from others and you need to protect yourself from it'. I believe that Spirit knows what it's doing, and if I needed protection to help others, then why would Spirit make what I do so easy? Wouldn't there be stumbling blocks to the healing until I learned that I need to do this or do that in order for it to work? Since there aren't (except those in my own head), I'm quite happy letting Spirit take the lead and leaving all the rest for others.
I know there have to be more rebel healers out there...are you one? In what way? Let's spread the word! Rebel Healers Unite! ;)
©Pip Miller - August 2014